...is there me behind the mask?

I live my days between saying and doing, among doubts and uncertainties,
often I am overcome with anguish when I think of my inner dilemma.
At the beginning of the 70s, I was feeling an impatience that I hid with my loneliness, as a shy little boy, those small tits that I was perceiving on my chest were complicating my existence and I felt so ashamed! So I lived my childhood with the everyday esthetic problem during school life; my classmates kidded me, they called me the “little girl” of the class, since at that time females and males had strictly separate classes. Then the desire to play with girls my same age, the wish to dress like them and to be with them...untill the embarrassment was evident, when during the intimate plays the difference showed up..
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Many years of incomprehension passed, years of sufferings and sentimental disappointment.
The one thought was always there, strong in my mind as always, until one day I decided to free myself of this uneasiness knowing that there would be many other problems.
-) I wanted to declare my self different ... I wanted ti live en-femme! (-
so Irene was born.. the result of years of suffered creation..
today, finally I live two separate roles, two opposite realities that I like to alternate with nonchalance, two unperfect beings anyway, the one living behind the other.
-) two souls in one body (-
I travel when I desire it, I can't put roots in one place, I split my affections a little bit everywere, in Italy for a few months and then away..in other countries. My height depends on the heels that i wear, so it is decided by my mood. I am not tall, but with heels everything is different, I have a right weight, but I am not skinny. I love to live peacefully in open air, chatting in tranquillity with my best friends, I play the piano and the violin, I listen to every kind of music but I prefer the blues, I read and write adventure novels, the night is for creation and I like to stay awake until the morning comes, until the rising of the sun, that I must not see, otherwise my mood becomes intolerable.
I don't drink alcoholics and only beer makes me drunk but a glass of good wine at dinner warms the heart, I don't smoke and I hate every kind of drug, I am very cleen, I hate every thing showed on television, I love to go to the cinema..but I hate violent movies and crazy demential film directors!
I love sport cars and custom bikes, i would like to be an easy-rider and ride through deserts and open spaces, I'm not interested in soccer, it rather bores me, I think that shopping is an infectious desease, so it's better to stay away from it.
My visitor, now that you are surely bored or maybe a little curious, now that you know a little more about me, I wonder what you think about me..maybe I should take off the mask?
If you want you can come on over in my different and unusual world...